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August 29 I have a dreamSwimming yesterday - my arms are aching now. Good pain. I may be stronger... Autumn is coming - it's so pleasant outside. Cloudy and chilly, I hope it's raining later. Autumn used to be my favourite season, when I was a melancholic boy... I still like it. I have a dream. I want to travel. I want to sail. I want to climb. I want to fly. I want to tell my Mum how beautiful the world is. I want to be her window to the world. August 27 the beauty in ugly"She's so big hearted, But not so remarkable Just an ordinary humble girl Expecting nothing as we're made to think It's a pretty person's world But you are beautiful and you better go show it Go look again, you gotta be true to your own If you really wanna go to the top Do you really wanna win? Don't believe in living normal, just to satisfy demand Well, if you wanna get free And if you wanna do the passionate thing And if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart You should own your name and stand up tall And get real and see the beauty in ugly" [Jason Mraz, The Beauty In Ugly]
Hitlist #338 August 27th, 2007
August 26 attackI guess I've been not nice recently. Not apparently, nobody has heard anything impolite. But sometimes I feel that people don't understand that I may also be tired. Or not want to talk. The fact that I smile doesn't man that I intend to start a 3-hour-talk!! The fact that I meat strangers in the elevator and say "hello" to them doesn't mean that we became friends! The fact that I'm online doesn't mean that I'm willing to talk about meaningless things! Sometimes it seems that I should respect others but those others don't respect my free time, my feelings... Some accuse me that I'm not gentle because I never start chatting first. Geez! Relax, please!
I give them a finger, they want a hand. I give them a hand, they want an arm. I give them an arm, they want the whole body. Some can't notice the border of my intimacy. There are places where no-one can enter. I have a strong feeling of independence. When in danger, I attack.
Apprently it's been a hot summer. Too hot. August 24 glassesNew glasses - new look.
This time they're red. Funky design.
Fashionable.
Cool.
I should put some photos!! August 20 selfish Jean"Cheers
Thanks for everything You hung me out by my heart You're just so selfish Jean Yes you are Hey you Threw it all away By holding everything in Hey Jean, don't rock the boat When you can't swim With a perfect understanding of the finer things in life A quite alarming knack of knowing when to twist the knife Oooooooooh Selfish Jean" [Travis, Selfish Jean, The Boy With No Name]
Hitlist #337
August 20th, 2007
Hangzhou
August 18 talk- Nice to meet you here again. Do you have classes at WEB now?
- Yes. Where are you now?
- Of course on duty in office.
- You know, many girls students in WEB like you very much.
- I see...
- They talked about you at the English corner at last night.
- Really!! What did they talk?
- They said you are the one of their favourite teachers.
- That's very nice...
- They'd rather have your English corner lesson. They want to know when will you have English corner lesson every week.
- On every Saturday.
- I know. August 16 playing with wordsI like playing with words. Words have a specific power. The power can stimulate others to communicate. To communicate is a natural human need. I need to talk to people. People want to spend time with me. Me and my world... My world is very unique. Unique thing is something which only I can understand and have. To have or to be - it is a question. A question should be asked by everybody. Everybody needs to feel wanted. Wanted... dead or alive. Alive is what I choose. To choose is my right. Right is not my side. My side is left. Left is what I like. I like playing with words. Words... August 13 books from boxes"You spent the evening unpacking books from boxes
You passed me up so as not to break a promise Scattered polaroids and sprinkled words around your collar in the long run Said you knew that this would happen The pounding rain continued it's bleak fall
And we decided just to write after all, after all" [Maximo Park, Books From Boxes, Our Earthly Pleasures]
Hitlist #336
August 13th, 2007
August 11 healthIt looks like the autumn is coming. It's still hot but the days are more cloudy and it rains more often. Finally we will be able to breathe the fresher air. Finally riding bicycle will be more pleasant.
I still work crazily. Almost everyday I come back home after 9 pm, sometimes at 10 - when I teach in Xiaoshan. I found out that I'm lack of sleep... When I go to sleep at about midnight and wake up at 6:30 or 7 - that's definitely too short. Some students invited me for a party yesterday night. I felt so sorry but I refused. It made me feel stupid because I didn't want to disappoint them. Anyway, deep in my heart I felt that I had to do it. Health is the most important, isn't it?
Good news of the past week? I got money. I'm a little bit rich now!  August 06 sometimesSometimes I feel like an idiot. Sometimes it's difficult to say "no", fearing of anger or disappointment. Sometimes I say "no" - almost nobody expects it, noticing rather unusual behaviour. Sometimes I feel like screaming. Sometimes I'm getting tired of being useful, kind and happy. Sometimes I'm Mr. Hyde, showing dark side of Dr. Jeckyll's personality. Sometimes I don't want to talk, then I'm offline - or just appear offline, assuring possibility to check who's online. Sometimes it's raining in Hangzhou, far too seldom. Sometimes I forget an umbrella, sometimes I'm getting wet. Sometimes it's too hot and I'm wet again. Sometimes I feel sorry about that, sometimes I don't care about such details. Sometimes I don't notice people, walking around with my head in the clouds. I'm tall.
Don't worry. Sometimes is not always.
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Hitlist #334
August 6th, 2007
绿都世贸广场, 萧山
August 03 radioMusic is important in my life. I listen to it everyday - on iPod, on the computer or on the radio... I keep listening to Polish Radio. There was always my music teacher, a great reporter, Mr. Marek. This week he decided to leave the radio where he had worked for more than 25 years. Sad news, because I know I will miss that specific voice and the atmosphere it used to create all the time. Many people feel the same. And today is the time for our favourite radio show... It will be different, with another presenter.
Actually it's because of Mr. Marek I started to write my own chart, my list of favourite songs. Here's the newest edition.
Hitlist #334
July 30th, 2007 Hangzhou - 39 degrees  1. 2 (4) PLACEBO, Running Up That Hill 2. 3 (7) JAY CHOU, Jie Kou 3. 1 (8) MUSE, Map Of The Problematique 4. 4 (5) ARCHIVE, Lights 5. 9 (3) ARCTIC MONKEYS, Fluorescent Adolescent 6. 7 (5) AIR, Mer Du Japon 7. 6 (11) THE WHITE STRIPES, Icky Thump 8. 16 (6) GARETH GATES, Angel On My Shoulder 9. 12 (2) MAXIMO PARK, Books From Boxes 10. 5 (13) GOOD CHARLOTTE, The River 11. 10 (23) SIGUR ROS, Glosoli 12. 17 (3) MANIC STREET PREACHERS, Autumnsong 13. - (1) TRAVIS, Selfish Jean 14. 11 (9) WITHIN TEMPTATION, Frozen 15. - (1) JASON MRAZ, The Beauty In Ugly 16. 18 (2) MODEST MOUSE, Missed The Boat 17. 13 (8) MARILYN MANSON, Heart Shaped Glasses 18. 8 (8) NIGHTWISH, Eva 19. 14 (16) MAROON 5, Makes Me Wonder 20. 15 (6) SMASHING PUMPKINS, Tarantula weekendFriday was always a good day. In my country (and many other western countries) it is the beginning of weekend. That's why on that day there are the most parties - maybe even more than on Saturdays. Anyway, I live on the other side of the world where everything looks different. I'm working today. I'm working tomorrow. I'm working on Sunday. Finally, I'm free on Monday and Tuesday.
My weekend starts on Sunday.
It's a new definition of weekend, just for me. August 02 shortIt's hot. I'm tired. I'm hard-working. I changed my flat. My parents went for holidays. It's cold in Poland. I have a Chinese family. Chinese Dad, Chinese Mum. It's so warm.
I have no time for my own interests. Summer is always busy.
I'm waiting for autumn. Then I'll go far. Somewhere.
I often smile. Some people told me it was weird. They're weird! |
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